So What Happened?

There is something very sobering for me about putting thoughts into words - as if by doing so they become reality. Recently, it's that reality that I've wanted to avoid. I'm not necessarily saying that my life has been bad- I'm thankful for the many things that I have - it just has been difficult for me. Let me break it down for you:

1. The condo we were renting went into foreclosure
2. CRAZY WORK STUFF
3. Pick up Second Job at Loopy Yarns
4. Find and move to new apartment apartment (not skeezy condo)
5. Tom got laid off right before the holidays(but promptly found work a month later
6. CRAZY WORK STUFF
7. CRAZY SCHOOL STUFF
8. My Grampa passed away (I really miss him)
9. CRAZY WORK STUFF
10. CRAZY WORK STUFF
11. CRAZY SCHOOL STUFF
12. CRAZY WORK and SCHOOL STUFF converge on the same weekend
13. Graduation
14. CRAZY WORK STUFF
15. and lots of knitting interspersed in an effort to stay sane

I think that's it, but it is very likely that I could be forgetting something. All of this combined with stress, depression and grief has not made the last year very easy. However, I've grown, I'm a stronger person because of it, and with help from my fantastic therapist, I've been able to get to a place that I've never been before - where I can focus on myself, my needs, and do the hard work it takes to become the woman I want to be. Previously I had this in the form of the GMSTB30 program, which slipped to the wayside amongst all of the other crap that was going on. The plan had been to lose a bunch of weight and get my shit together by the time I hit 30, when I would then go to Japan, climb mt fuji, and I dunno, revel in my awesomeness. It goes without saying that the plan has changed a little.

The new plan, which will be entitled "GMST30B - Get My Shit Together, 30 and Beyond," will start at the summit of Mt. Fuji (where I'll still be reveling in my awesomeness) as the kickoff of a new phase of my life - one where I take good care of myself, recognize and fulfill my needs, communicate with others, and not get caught up in a bunch of stupid baggage that makes me feel like shit.

08.17.09 8:47am(2 comments)