Monthly Archives: August 2009
So What Happened?
There is something very sobering for me about putting thoughts into words - as if by doing so they become reality. Recently, it's that reality that I've wanted to avoid. I'm not necessarily saying that my life has been bad- I'm thankful for the many things that I have - it just has been difficult for me. Let me break it down for you:- The condo we were renting went into foreclosure
- CRAZY WORK STUFF
- Pick up Second Job at Loopy Yarns
- Find and move to new apartment apartment (not skeezy condo)
- Tom got laid off right before the holidays(but promptly found work a month later
- CRAZY WORK STUFF
- CRAZY SCHOOL STUFF
- My Grampa passed away (I really miss him)
- CRAZY WORK STUFF
- CRAZY WORK STUFF
- CRAZY SCHOOL STUFF
- CRAZY WORK and SCHOOL STUFF converge on the same weekend
- Graduation
- CRAZY WORK STUFF
- and lots of knitting interspersed in an effort to stay sane
I think that's it, but it is very likely that I could be forgetting something. All of this combined with stress, depression and grief has not made the last year very easy. However, I've grown, I'm a stronger person because of it, and with help from my fantastic therapist, I've been able to get to a place that I've never been before - where I can focus on myself, my needs, and do the hard work it takes to become the woman I want to be. Previously I had this in the form of the GMSTB30 program, which slipped to the wayside amongst all of the other crap that was going on. The plan had been to lose a bunch of weight and get my shit together by the time I hit 30, when I would then go to Japan, climb mt fuji, and I dunno, revel in my awesomeness. It goes without saying that the plan has changed a little.
The new plan, which will be entitled "GMST30B - Get My Shit Together, 30 and Beyond," will start at the summit of Mt. Fuji (where I'll still be reveling in my awesomeness) as the kickoff of a new phase of my life - one where I take good care of myself, recognize and fulfill my needs, communicate with others, and not get caught up in a bunch of stupid baggage that makes me feel like shit.
08.17.09 8:47am(2 comments)
New Beginnings
As you can see, it's been quite some time since I've last blogged. This past year was really difficult for Tom and I and full of lots of really big stuff. Somehow we've managed to survive and in a week from tomorrow will be in Japan, a much deserved vacation and a celebration of my 30th birthday. In some sort of messed up right of passage - I've got it in my mind to climb mount fuji and see the sunrise from the summit on my birthday. Then the rest of the time we'll be checking out more of what Japan has to offer us. Tom will definitely be taking a lot of pictures and I plan to blog about it - and when we're not running around there will be lots of knitting.I miss my blog and between travels, knitting projects, my plans for the future and my daily misadventures, I do have a lot to write about. So I think I'm going to do this again.
08.14.09 8:36am(4 comments)